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Monday, May 31, 2010

Finally, finally, finally. I finally cut my hair! hahas, i am kinda missing my long hair but oh well. What's done is done. Well, 2 more days to 3 massive ICAs', less than a week to my speech presentation and a few more ICAs'. Am i prepared? NO! i haven even studied! like wth man.. I got school till 6, after which i got to go too church from 7-9. Leaves me one day to study for my POM(Management), AFA(accounting) and Stats. Crappp, plus i have DB on wed. mama mia..! Hahass..this blog is solely for my complains :D! I know rightttt..... you must be like -.-! hahahas! :D!

Today was quite fun! i enjoyed going to school and meeting Nat after that. Man, sometimes i wish i have a girlfriend. Someone to share my love with, someone that can spend time with me throughout the day, someone that can comfort me when I'm sad and celebrate with me when I'm happy. sometimes i would wonder why I'm single while my friends are all attached..am i a very bad person? maybe i am.... :(. Am i too nice to be a boyfriend? I don't know..sometimes my heart longs to be with somebody. Times like these, i know who i wanna be with. But it just seems kind of impossible cos i don't know how her reaction will be like. Whether she'll accept me or just reject me. I hate rejection and i think at least for now...What's better is that i just leave things as it is. Friends. Just friends. No matter how much it pains me so when i see her face and her smiling at me, i just gotta take it like a man. I know i really like her, to the extend that i could actually love her. But i need more self-confidence. I need to control and make sure the relationship work out. But can i? Sometimes, come to think of it, it is better to keep things the way they are. At least then i can see her all the time and anytime without worrying about anything. And if i confess, i just fear that our friendship will just turn into moments of awkward silence. she gives me the butterflies and she is so sophisticated but i just think I'm falling for her even more. I've been secretly liking her. And I'll continue to do it. As i told Dawn, "I would just be in the background, loving and caring for her, it doesn't matter if she knows or not. If she does then it's good. If not, just let me fade into the background and slowly fade away."

Gotta study!!! tomorrow!

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